Bold: The Mentor Within
Normal: Mary

Often people speak to me or ask a question and they expect an appropriate response. They want to know they have been heard, they want empathy, they want guidance, they want answers. Most of the time if I go inside and ask Spirit for help, the answer I get is to remain silent or to send the question back to them so they can go within and find the answer. God does not give me a "socially-culturally appropriate" response.

When it happens to be that you currently find someone full of questions, resolve their business for them by answering the unspoken question; that will give them great freedom within.

What is the unspoken question?

Who am I? This is the root cause of anxiety that maintains the wheel of questions and the flipping through the potential responses to the questions.

I am imagining a game where a stack of cards is full of "answers" to questions and all my mind does is reach for the next "answer" - the top card on the stack. I realize the limits of my answers. Like this morning I was meditating on Christ and my mind floated to the beach house we were considering staying at on vacation. Eventually I found myself saying "beach house" like a mantra. This mind is completely distractible. I had to laugh at myself.

What is the answer to this unspoken question, "Who am I"?

A crowd of masters gathered around to ponder the question, "Who am I?" While they were pondering, Christ walked in and poured each of them a glass of water. He rested the still full pitcher on the risen stone centered between them. Each drank from their own cup until each cup was emptied. They continued to ponder the question. All the while, Christ continued to reappear and fill their cups. Not one noticed from where their full cup came or the pitcher on the risen stone amidst them which remained full. Once again the door opened and Christ walked among them and filled their cups. This time one of the masters took notice of the servant and asked, "Who are you?" The servant replied, "I am Christ," and continued filling their cups.

Mentor Within, I am wanting to change the way I teach shiatsu. The students need to be drawn more inward toward awareness of that which is within. The ego mind is distracting, judgmental, has warped perceptions, and engages in projection. All of these are dangerous for the therapist and client.

The two of you need to contemplate who will be teaching shiatsu. Will it be you or You?

I want more and more for my Self in God to teach.

Well, then I have a plan for You.

Oh, great. What is the plan?

Give up your ideas about teaching. Forget your old practice and methods. Remember, the "mode of transportation" (the body) is quickly "fixed," but seldom healed. Only in unusual circumstances does the body seem to initiate a trigger which leads to a healing of the mind.

What kind of circumstances? Do you regard the body as an instrument of healing?

Why am I all of a sudden having visions of the Holocaust? I am seeing people being brutally handled and forced to live in extreme deprivation. I imagine that at that point the only thing left to do is to turn to God. I am imagining a man whose "humanity" has been broken, taken from him, and there he sits on the hard, dirt ground. He looks around himself and sees the weary, torn lives that look more like death. But in his wisdom, that cannot be taken from him, he sees the only way out is to let God have him. Are these the kind of unusual circumstances to which you refer? This man I envisioned, it seems as though his mind was being surrendered to God as a result of a physical breakdown and destitution. Why am I having this image of the Holocaust?

Suffering often necessitates an opening to God. The vision I have given you is a vision of the ultimate suffering.

But why have you brought me an image of the Holocaust?

The purpose of this vision is to hence clear your mind of all suffering, for this vision holds all of the suffering of humanity. I have imagined you just as you are, and it is here, within you, that I see no suffering. Clearly this is the real vision. I want you to be set free of all the images of suffering that come to you throughout your day and torture your fragile little mind. You have been given the gift of seeing how one's mind can be totally transformed in the midst of suffering by completely surrendering one's weakness to God. Tell me what you see becoming of the man in your vision of suffering?

I imagine a man, no longer immersed in the density of humanity because he has chosen complete surrender. He stands in the dull, cold, lifeless abyss and notices that he has no taste left in his mouth. No saliva secretes into his mouth, for he has lost his "taste" for this world. He stands in the Light that now he sees, basking in All that heals him.

Nothing works as it had before; everything is changed. Though he is standing in a body, he knows the body not in the same way. He has forgotten the body he once inhabited. He is radiant. Everything has changed. In this moment, his is the choice for God. He goes on … everything has changed … we have all been changed, whether we know it or not.

You have willingly surrendered your mind to God. The purpose of this vision is to clear your mind for the images and visions that are yet to come if you are willing to receive them, resting in the presence of God. Do not be afraid of the blessings being showered upon you. The gifts of the world are for everyone to receive and relinquish in their own time. The gifts of God are bold and forthcoming. You may receive what you are being given now.

Why would someone be unwilling to surrender one's mind to God?

The mind does not know where it goes most of the time. The unforgiving mind is fearful of willingness, of letting Spirit be the guide, for it sees only the small self which cannot be trusted. Hence, it has every reason to be fearful.

How does one become willing?

When the smallest step is taken toward God, God gives you the walk of a thousand miles that you could not accomplish on your own.

What does any of this have to do with how I teach shiatsu?

Teach. Behold your students in the Light of God. Maintain the Light. The darkness of the ego will negotiate its way behind the door. What you are really teaching is "listening."

What about spiritual teachers?

Those who have gone the way open doors amidst bolts and fire.

How do I know who has "gone the way"?

They sit behind open doors. Everlasting love in union with God precedes them; they love.

When you say those who have "gone the way," what do you mean?

Those who have risen from the dead. Like a white daisy among a bed of red roses. The seed that has been planted emerges as pure truth.

Why are not the red roses in your description also pure truth?

For they know one another only as a mirror, a reflection of one's small self. They see only that which they believe themselves to be.

What does the white daisy see?

Nothing. It looks within and becomes nothing in its own eyes.

When the white daisy looks within and sees nothing, then what is its motivation to live?

All the red roses, awaiting salvation.

How does the white daisy save the red roses?

By seeing them differently, for who they truly are.

How do I rise from the dead; how do I go the way?

Seamlessly walk in God.

Seamlessly? What is seamlessly?

We cannot know the path until we take it.

How many gurus does it take to screw in a light bulb? There will never be enough, because the Light is within … Life will unfold as we listen. Do you hear the sound of your own unfolding? What a gift.

The other day when caring for the roses, I spontaneously began kissing them, seeing their radiant beauty within. The red velvet petals so luscious and soft kissed me back! I was amazed with these kissing flowers. I remembered what you said about giving "Life." It seemed as though these red roses literally were giving "Life" by giving of their Self.